A Road Called Beautiful

A Road Called Beautiful

A Road Called Beautiful 

Honestly, this is the most vulnerable I’ve allowed myself to be in a long time. It’s interesting to learn how to tackle things head on with the Holy Spirit and see the impact of going after issues. Trust me, in doing so, I’m experiencing deep peace, truth, joy and strength. It just dawned on me one day while at school here that I’ve been giving my signed permission to fear… and it has muzzled me in so many areas of my life, and I’m done with that agreement. Ha… I’ve cancelled that subscription. 

I can’t tell you the joys of being empowered to take on your issues in a place of safety and strength.  I’m so glad I realised that I’m not fighting on my own anymore.  I’m learning to steward my life apart from a place of fear and into a tangible, even measurable, place of freedom. 

This blog is a massive part of my freedom process. I’m not proclaiming to be an expert writer, but I know I have something to share… That’s why I called this blog “The Story of Freedom.”

So I thought I would share a poem with you called a ‘A Road Called Beautiful’. Let’s tackle this issue head on. Hmmm…Am I beautiful? 

A Road Called Beautiful

There’s a road called beautiful.

The destination is unknown.

But it does exist, I know this for sure.

So how can I get there? And what must I do?

To change this ugly black girl to someone beautiful. 

I heard rumours that only some people make it 

And everyone who didn’t make it, they all just fake it  

They say this road has a toll along the way 

And I know I don’t have the right currency to pay. 

So you see I’d rather die if I can’t arrive there

Where promises are made to the beautiful ones who paid. 

They set the standard and they always pave the way 

Cause only beautiful ones seem to get engaged.

I feel like a mess, the one that attracts NO interest 

The mess that can’t win in this fundamental beauty contest.

So what do I do?  And if I do, will it always be true?

And what do I change? So that everyone can approve.

Then someone replied to my deepest cries

In the longest hour of my darkness night.

And He spoke to me these words of life 

Crushing the greatest lie that resides inside.

“The road you seek is a road that bleeds

Distorted GPS coordinates to drive you away from me.

Beautiful is who I am and who I made you to be 

Beauty is your weapon so live fearlessly.

Don’t align yourself with the beat of perversion 

Beautiful is your outward and inward expression 

Look for the beauty I created and you will find. 

That a road called beautiful doesn’t exist

And it was in you the entire time.”

Fin 

Writing this poem is a reflection of the state of my mind and the fight to keep my head above water over the last few years. This was a crippling way to live, but my breakthrough came through a simple renewed question. Lyanna, what if you’re already beautiful? It started to stir hope deep within my being. I’ve learned that if you can’t see beauty in yourself, then how can I see it in others?  

Love yourself well. That has been my greatest challenge. What if the accuser tells you who you are NOT, because it is they very thing you are?  This revelation rocked me. WHO AM I?

What is beauty? Is this my weapon? How can I look at myself as beautiful when all I see is me…I decided to renew my thought process and take a chance (Faith) to believe that every negative thought I was having about my beauty was perverted and in actual fact an indication to the truth of who I am in Christ… I will no longer insult the Designer. This is my process and story of freedom. 

 – Lyanna Austin

Hey friends.

I’ve finally got my act together, and i’m starting a new blog called ‘The Story of Freedom’. This is an exciting new project for me to keep you informed and updated. I’ll update you guys with stories: songwriting material and general life musings.

For y’all that don’t know where I am, I’ve moved myself all the way out to Redding, California. (Yeah I didn’t know where it was either LOL). I’m studying at Bethel School of Ministry for 9 months on a course designed to train ‘Revivalists: (n) A believer who is focused and passionate, willing to pay any price to live in community, purity, and power because they are loved by God, whose manifest presence transforms lives and cultures.

Sounds like a mouthful but it’s basically living my life dedicated to do what Jesus did. I arrived here on the 6th September 2016 with three suitcases and £600 to my name. It’s been a rollercoaster ride of two months now. I’ve adjusted nicely to the heat, small town culture, food and struggled with politics (Hmm yeah) It’s been interesting.

FAQs

What is your week like, Lyanna ?

I go to school four times a week and attend church service every Sunday. Each week we get Fridays off to study as our workload is pretty full. We have school sessions each day with speakers, lecturers, worship, and advanced ministry track, revival group meetings, small group meetings and city service spaced throughout the week. So it’s a full on schedule. I’m starting to feel it now.

What have you been learning so far?

It has been so hard for me to articulate what’s been happening here and its impact on my life.

So I thought I would start small rather than nothing at all. I’ve dedicated this page to exploring my story of freedom, freedom of my heart, mind, body and soul via mediums, and I have no idea what it will look like. ARGHH!

“If you don’t make the time to work on creating the life you want, you’re eventually going to be forced to spend a lot of time dealing with a life you don’t want.” – Unknown

My housemate shared this quote with me and it stood out to me, that i’m here to work on the life I really want with Jesus at the forefront.  I’ve called this page ‘The Story of Freedom’ because I had a prophetic word when I arrived here that I was going to experience freedom and then release freedom over people.  I’ve been looking into the definition of the word Freedom. And it means the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint.  I am watching this unfold in so many ways… seeing things change in me from the inside out –  breakthroughs I didn’t think were really possible for me. Coming to Bethel was definitely one of the best decisions I’ve ever made for so many good reasons.

How can we help you?

You can partner with me in prayer or in finances.  Please join my Bethel Adventure Facebook group. You can donate or become a sponsor towards my living costs.  As an international student I’m not allowed to earn any money in the USA. So international students rely on sponsors and donations to survive. At Bethel, a big part of the journey is faith and faith = Risk. So everyday is a lesson to trust God’s ability to take care of me.

Partner with me for living costs

You can transfer money using Paypal to lyannaaustin@gmail.com. Your contribution will help me pay my rent and utilities bills and American sim card, which is such a blessing. Email me for bank details lyannaaustin@gmail.com.

Partner with me to help fund my missions trip to Cambodia, March 2017

I’m going to CAMBODIA in March 2017. I’m so excited as I’ve been waiting for this opportunity for over 3 years. I’ll be going with a team from Bethel to Phon Phen and travelling all over working in an orphanage with over 100 kids, youth street ministry, sustainability projects and working with women that have been rescued from trafficking. I’m learning to lay my life down for others and release the love of God on the broken, oppressed and those that don’t have a voice. So I’m asking friends and family to help me with the funds for this trip. The overall trip cost is $2850. My first payment is due on the 5th of Dec of $900. If you would like to make a financial contribution to this trip you can donate here… https://trips.ibethel.org/transactions/new/16450

Remember, If you are not able to donate financially, please pray for me on this journey.

Much love.

– Lyanna